i felt despair…i felt alone…i felt as if im dead inside..



sara pls dont…jus dont..


mode: emo

music: ceiling fan

y am i so emotional lately…am i undergoing menopause phase or sth…


u r clear rite now aite, so u noe wat to do aite?

so wat r u waiting for?

waiting for the moon to fall?or the cullens to knock on ur door?n say..hey dude wats wrong wif u..

hakzz apa dah cullen…

i noticed sth lately…

u look so pale, as if u r bcoming one of the cullens..

r u been eating the (taufoo) all dis while?

haha get some life…i noe its hard for u…

but u got to try…this is wat u chose, n u hv to finish it…

u cant back off…its too late to back off…

n never ever think ever never ever to give up ever…lol

u just hv to endure it…its only 1 yer left….


cheer up ok….n live life to the max….

n nvr regret wat u hv done, n wat u hvnt….

u still hv the chances, go n explore (ouh i hate e word explore, it makes my heart burning everytime i think bout dat word) the things that u hv yet to try…

world are the place for u to try everything, but of course, there are boundaries!


yess…u r a muslim n incase u hvnt notice, u r a gal…

*ur soo sexist…

okay myself…ill not cross the boundaries…

*promise 😉

~an exampple of self regulation…been really down lately, til ive got to advice myself…there is no other person who can monitor u 24/7 except Allah n urself…yes u…the one who typing this blog entry…XD

ahh..still feeling so down n (may i say dump) rite now..dont noe y…O Allah pls help me to endure in ur temporary-nice-beautiful-yet-lot-of-deceives-if-u-r-not-careful world of urs. Pls guide me, so dat i can endeavour to be a good servant of u… n pls be my guidance in the world and the hereafter…

iam nothing without u…


sarah wake up…!!!

stop day dreaming….this is reality…*slap on the head

ok2 i must not think about dat again…repeat after me,

imust not think bout dat again…..great! now go back to wer u hv stop..start all over again, n make sure make no mistakes…

try ur best, i noe u aint trying ur best…u can do better den dis, am sure u can…n dont ever EVER fall in e same trap again..ever

no one loves u more den urself, u cant love somebody else without luvin urself first…so luv urself den others will love u…ok?


ive a paper on dis sat, but instead of studying im taking all these crazy fun quizes. since its quite a long time i didnt update my blog, ive decided to post it here, for my memoirs in e future if boredom is wrecking me head. it jus for fun tho. n some of the findings are indeed somewhat true..LOL especially the forgetness part…

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


Here is the analysis:

  1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don’t have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
  2. You don’t really care about other people’s feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn’t always about parties.
  3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people’s advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
  4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up–it’s okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
  5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.



Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that’s why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don’t just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person’s personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn’t meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What’s your personality love style?

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that’s why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don’t just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person’s personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn’t meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?

Here is the analysis:

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm – you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

Is He The One For You?

Success Rate In Relationships: 61%

Things could turn out either way.

You are a little too confident. You assume that he acts the way he does because he’s interested in you. Don’t forget, however, that he’s the type of guy who is interested in a lot of things–and a lot of people. He’s a very popular person, so it doesn’t mean he cares particularly for you when he shows that he’s worried because you’re not well, or because he has called you at home once or twice. Nonetheless, you should not abandon all your hopes! It could be that he really does like you, and the way he acts indicates these feelings. You need to carefully observe his behavior, and how he reacts to you. And you should show him more clearly how you feel. If he reacts to you as usual after he knows you’re keen, then don’t worry, he’s coming your way.

Jealousy Test

You easily get jealous of other people, but you manage to control your expressions and emotions. For instance, when a close friend tells you that she has met the man of her dreams, you might sincerely say to her “Congratulations!”, but what you’re really thinking is “You’re so lucky! Why can’t I be you?”

What are the causes of your conflicts with friends?

A map and a compass are a sign of seriousness. However, you often forget the time and place for your appointment with friends which bores them right? So, don’t mix up your schedule and recheck it in order to follow the schedule correctly. OMG dat is so mee….peluper giler..

Your Marriage

How will you choose your Mr Right?

No matter how many men you have beating a path to your front door, when it comes to picking Mr Right, you’ll listen to your parents. Not only will you become weary of all your suitors, deep down you don’t quite trust your own judgment.

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your future hubby will be lovely and sweet, but a little immature – possibly even a spoilt brat! This guy will trigger your maternal instinct. You’ll always be willing to watch his back and clean up his mess. He might be the same age as you are or even younger.

When will you get married?

As soon as you fall in love, you’ll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing.

What sort of wife will you be?

You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you’ll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man.

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won’t end up quite as healthy, but you’ll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends.

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be quiet and won’t give you a hard time – they’ll be a joy to have around. However, you should teach them to be stronger and more confident in themselves. Otherwise they might grow up to be losers.

How loyal are you?

You get along very well with most guys. Sometimes your friendliness misleads others to think that you’re a bit of a flirt, but actually you’ve got a loyal heart. You’ll never have eyes for anyone except your beloved husband.


“u disappeared without any notes, not even a gudbye. Vanished from me eyes, even harder 2 diminish u from me heart and mind. only bit n pieces of u makes our memory alive.”

a note for my long lost fren..

 wer ve u been? r u ok? i just want to noe wether u r ok.

u msg me wen u needed, but never reply wen i did.

how cud u…

do u tink, im someone who u can talk to, wen nobody else to turn to.

n wen u ve got accompany, u dont even bother about me…

how cud u…

ps: knowing u is a mistake…


its now 4.30 in the morning..i cant sleep,

so…i decided to cek my frenster, which ive sort of abondoned for quite a tyme.

i was scrollng around all frens dat ive added n accepted one by one, to remember who der are.

n i want to see eir updates. n…after i finish scrolling n remembering all my frens, i felt dat someone is missing,

yeah someone’s name is not der. so i scroll again, n try hard to remember h__ nickname.

after my futile effort, i didnt found it. so i try to use de search device.

so wen i did…

 i found it. BUT…

the profile is private!its mean dat, i ve been deleted from h__ account. WHAT?

 u deleted me…

how could u…

u e one who ruined dis relationship n u deleted me.

so cruel of u..

okie den, if u dont want us to b frens again…n i knew, u block me in the msn too, dont u..

wat ever it is, tanx for being my fren ya.

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a new leaf

turn a new leaf of ur life sarah…move on…u cant keep waiting for something uncertainty..

hey work hard for ur new-upcoming-gorgeous-sexy-baby D90. n gd luck for ur xm…wait…ive abnormal paper dis sat…got to be bloody focus…!


wer de hell r u?

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